I remember when I was in 3rd grade I was with a good friend of mine and we decided to "write a book". It was really just for fun as it was written on colored paper and I wasn't even the making the story but it did made me dream of future creative endevores. Now nearly nine years later I find myself afraid as a book I put my heart into is about to hit shelves.

I believe these fears are just since Tony usaully does all the talking and I am rather shy. Just the other day I woke up in a cold sweat believing I went up on stage and did something horribly embarrassing. But strangly enough I beleve these fears arn't purely negative. These fears that plagued me for the last week may in fact be training.

Some may ask training for what and I would respond "Everything" . The brain is a powerful muscle that is designed to give us the optimal brain power we can have at this given time. It is my belief that my brain is preparing me on what not to do and how to avoid it. If I am being truthful I still fear talking to large groups even about something I am passionate about but I beleve these fears can turn into dreams. These fears and anixites will make us stronger if we trust ourselves and do our best.

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